small talk.

Tra-la-la~ I'm back! I updated my blogskin again [: Nothing better to do plus a little self-obsessed. Ha.. Hooooorays! I finished my homework, I think.. I lost track of how much homework I was poured at for the past week. Hack luh, as long got do something can already. Hahaha. Wee! Tomorrow is a Public Holiday! So, NO school! [x Hmm, Happy Labours' Day? HAHA! 'Your joke is not funny~~' Bleah. I super hate Tuesdays! They make me want to cry luh. Lessons from 9AM to 5PM?! WTF?! 2 Lectures and 1 Tutorial. Can DIE one leh.. ZZZ. Woah, it's May tomorrow.. Happy birthday to all May babies!! Whatever I'm saying luh. LOL.. All the best to those takind Mid-year Examinations!!!!! Wah, I sound like an ah lian with professional singrish Ha, okay lor.. See you!

tcc is my love.

Hello! I'm back. Haha, I went TCC again. Yay!! I had my hair cut today.. I think 1/3 of my hair was chopped off. Hee, but I must say, the hairdresser was great. Might consider requesting him for my next hair-cut! Yay, I'm so happy to have short hair back.. SO SO SO SO HAPPY!! I frankly hate long and wavy hair!! I'm going do some treatment to my hair tomorrow.. Hahaha, since I'm that free!! [: But I have tonnes of tutorial assignments to rush through. ARG. Huh... Homework... ]: Sigh!!!

Back to my TCC with darling VIP, OLIVIA LEE. Yay. It kind of become our usual hang out lor. Ya.. I'm sorry that I was LATE! The hairdresser love to trim my hair so much. I spent more that 1 hour in the saloon instead of the usual 30-40 minutes. But I'll find you to cut my hair next time!! [: Oh ya.. The train rides with her always seemed to pass 54651325 times faster than usual. Ha.. So we reached Plaza Singapura and went straight to the atrium. There was a lot of people today I guess, but we did manage to get us some comfy seats. FOOD FOOD FOOD!!

This is the club sandwich!! GREAT!

And our favourite potato wedges with cheese dip! WAHHHH!!! ><.. HA! YEAH!! Great foooooooood!!! Ah! But we end up eating in a mess as the sandwich was too tall, it kept toppling down. Hahaha. So we had this ridiculous but true conclusion: Never eat club sandwich when you are with your date. You will end up with a pile of MESS. So we chat and ate happily as normal, like we always do. When we were full and satisfied, we called for bill and went to PS to window shop and after that we went to Compass Point. We settled for Starbucks.. I suddenly thought that was hilariously ridiculous. TCC and Starbucks both are cafes, right? In one day, we went 2 cafes.. Ha.. Aiya, actually go SK got motive one luh.. :p After coffee, she went home with me as she wanted to burn some songs into the CD. I donated all my 'O' Level materials to her since I don't need it anymore. I rather donate them to my friends than giving to those dishonest and cheap-skate garang-guni man(rag-and-bone man). x: Some are really cheap-skate one lor. One pile of books I think they can give me 3 dollars only. What the hell -__-.. HAHA. I bought the books for 5 times more okay?! x: Sorry huh, I very 'kian sai' one. Is it the right hokkien term? LOL. After everything, I send her back to the MRT to go home.. Poor girl, carrying so many of my barang. Very important stuff okay?! LOL. Used to be very precious to me one lor.. Now abit worthless liao.. Ha.. I JUST LOVE MY DAY WITH MY DEAR FRIEND!!! Hope to see my sweety darling VIP again!!!! Man, I sound lesbiany..

Thats obviously me, before that MR chopped off my hair. :p

V.I.P to each other, cannot live w/o each other, must be together. DARLINGS AND THE VERY BESTIES!!!! [x

Finally, your dear friend, JOLENE! *everyone starts barfing.. uh oh... x:* After hair-cut! Good night! <3

wah lao, sabo me...

I love Enya! *blushes..* Aiya, I know I can get very old-fashion, but her music listen already can sleep. Relaxing mah.. Hee, guess I'll blog normarlly liao luh, feel like an idiot typing unprofessional 'Engrish'. Ha. Ehhh, finally my first week in TP has come to an end. I made it through a week!!!! WAHAHA. 'Idiot'. Ha.. Ya, I'm closer with my classmates now. Yes, and we share things we like and DISLIKE. Boys and bitches. x: Alright, I'll stop calling her a bitch. AT THE MOMENT.. I sound like a total bitch myself. Tsk.. Oh well, let see how everything goes.. Next week will be even more hectic, with all the tutorials and lab-work coming along. Yup.

Guess what, I went to school today for NOTHING. Well, I did sat through a 15 minute lecture and 'riiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnngggggggg!!!!' , the bloody fire alarm went off. So $#%^&&*#@ sway can!!! Aiya, there's no bombs or fire in the building, it's a fire drill exercise!! Wah lao... Wasted my time lor!! Then made us stand in the hot sun and told us that lessons will only resume at 11AM. I looked at my watch and start cursing and swearing.. 9.45AM LEI!!!! As a result, the make-up lecture was cancelled. Mind you, MAKE-UP lecture!!! Wah lao, damn pissed luh. I didn't have any lessons today by right luh! #@%$#^&**!@#!! Sigh, just my LUCK.

So my class girls went to have brunch. I followed them and watched them as they eat. It's like 10.30AM in the morning, so didn't have the appetite. We had a new classmate too! Her name's Su-hanna. A Chinese-Malay, or is it Malay-Chinese? Haha, Aiya, same luh.. Soon LX and Su went off, we started chatting among ourselves. Eventually, the chat turn into gossips. HAHAHA! I didn't mean to gossip about someone, but it's good to have people agreeing with you. Haha. I will watch my mouth too, don't worry. We just had to talk about that snob. You know, voicing out :p Yay... I will try to shut up.. I hope.

After what seemed like 7452953 hours of bragging, we all went home. Yup!
Thank God for giving me friends! I don't really know them yet, or how wonderful they are, I just hope the class stays united as one, for at least a year.. Pretty please?! Haha... I wish to be their wonderful friend too! [:
YES! I'm finding my dear VIP OLIVIA LEE LI TING LATER. Wah.. If she see this, typing her FULL NAME OUT, she's going to stranggle me, poke me, shout at me, scream at me... HAIYO, scary luh.. Haha. No luh, she super SWEET TO ME!!!!! YAYSSSS [:
I'm so excited to see her!!!!~~~~~ HAHAHA! Alright need to bathe and go CUT THE FREAKING MESSY HAIR LATER!
CIAO!

why does this entry look weird?

As an average freshmen point of view, everyday when we go to school, the very first thing we fret about is, 'What should I wear to school today?' I'm pretty easy with dressing up. A basic top and jeans will do. I wonder, does anyone spends hours to get ready to school? Abit exaggerating leh.. Hmmmm. Put a cake of make-up on your face, mix and match the clothings, shoe troubles.. Aiyo, very annoying leh.. Tsk tsk.. Next would be, 'Will I be late for lessons?' Hmmm... I get pretty annoyed when I have to catch the morning bus, 'cause it's always crowded with people who are going to school or work. I failed to get up the next crowded bus to school this morning and was rather pissed. Sigh. I took another bus to school which took a horrendously long route instead of 6 bus-stops away from school. The long route: a big loop which consists maybe 10 or more stops? More expensive too? :/

Finally, I arrived. Rushing off for lectures and finding the best seats in the room... During lecture, I found myself lost in my own world. Crap... 'Huh? What?' are frequently popping in my mind. 'Oh shit.. Need help here.. Anyone..!?' I finally realised I'm still in the holiday mood. My brain hasn't done anything productive for a period of five months, so nothing goes in there! The alienated subjects I've never done in my entire life makes things worse. Marketing, Accounting, Econs and more to come....

Finally after a 'grueling' two hours of accountings lecture, we're hungry! Freak, third question of the day, 'What should I eat today?' We had the whole class for lunch today. R01 decided to go to Design School for food. Design School's canteen was probably 1/2 of Business School's and we are snatching places from them. Poor things. I settled with western food again. So we sat and ate lunch and get to interact with others. After lunch, they made a wise decision, the Library. Very wise indeed! We ended up having a class interaction session but we were told to keep it down. Of course luh! We are in the library!!! We went outside the lecture rooms instead where they start their conversations about BGR. I'm not very open with people whom I don't know well, but I listen well. Hehehe.. We had our next lecture, Econs. I think it wasn't that bad. In fact, it's easier to understand.. Understanding human needs.. Scarsity, opportunity choice, CCP. OH WOW! I remembered my lecture!!!!! Amazing! [: Hmmm, my opinion, Econ sounds so geographic. Geography is good!!! Ha! Sorry luh, if I just realised it. I'm an idiot you know. :p

Another two hours passed, got my books with LiXian and went to hunt down SeokChin. Went to the Finace Dept. to hand in the CPF forms. Bloody hell, ours got rejected due to some cancellations and amendments that need our parent's signatures. Cancel one number also rejected. No choice but to go again tomorrow. Finally, I got home...

See how much I need to think of everyday? And it's like nothing very important. Thinking of the unnecessary. What a waste of time. Why am I typing in this way? Blogs, such influential things. Thank God I'm starting school at 1PM and ending at 3PM later. Sigh, it will be different for week 2. Instead of ending at 3PM, I'll be ending at 5PM. Week 1 is ending!! Hmm, and very soon Year 1 will end! HAHA!

first day of sch in TP.

Haha, yea. Today was my very first day in school. I actually think that I'm going to feel worser than a Secondary One kid on his/her first day of school in a High school. Well, I'm wrong. Kekeke. Don't laugh, I actually think today's lecture was fun! Okay, not exactly FUN luh, but did have some good laughs yea? Hehe. Hmm, I interact better with my classmates and even hung out with people from a different class after school. Ha, thanks a lot to SeokChin for introducing her classmates to me. [: After lecture, we were kind of explored the school campuses and finding the bookstore to get out books. After that we had lunch in the school canteen. Hmm, they sell cheap food though! Keke. LiXian needed to visit the doctor, poor girl! GET WELL SOON!!! [: So I hung out with SeokChin's classmates. They are really funny people!! Keke, we went to Tampines Mall and sat in Macdonalds' and had a chat. We went home around 2PM. Yea. So, I shall be looking forward for tomorrow? Haha. Man, I sound like a toally idiot! Take care!! CIAO!

let's learn malay!

Ahamd dear is willing to teach me some MALAY!!! WOOO!
So let me take down.. hohoho.

satu: 1
dua: 2
tiga: 3
empat: 4
lima: 5
enam: 6
tujuh: 7
lapan: 8
sembilan: 9
sepuluh: 10

I is 'aku', You is 'dia' or 'kau'.
She is 'perempuan', Him is 'lelaki' and They is 'dorang'.
Babi means PIG <)-OO-(>*oinks*
'Salah' means wrong and 'betul' means correct!
Mati! YOU DIE. Hahas. Just kidding.. d:
Apa khabar? means 'How are you?' [:
Then you will reply, 'Khabar baik.' But if you're not okay, then you will say, 'Tak khabar baik.'

Ehhh ehh, so FUN [: Keke. 'Gile' already luh d: 'Aku mati!!!'
Hehe.
Hmmmm, 'terima kasih' AHMAD!!!!
Kekekeke.. Sama sama, maju ge hagapan.. Aiya, anyhow sing one luh..
BYE! Hahaha.

what?~

Hmmm. Ok, I'm ZONKED, really. Put me anywhere and I'll just doze off.. Today's Orientation Day TWO.. Practically all the freshies were there cheering and squeezing in tht stupid small sports complex. After awhile, we went to watch Regatta at Bedok Resevior, where we sat on wet grass and got our butts and undies WET. Oh crap. Haha. Went 'HIGH' with Mai today! She super CUTE can! BTH!! LiXian's in Regatta too..! We embraced each other when we saw each other after the events. Ha, strange huh... And guess what!!! Business School's the overall champion! Hohoho.. We also won Regatta!!! WOOTY~ 'Business has won the war! Business has won the war....!' All the cheers are just ringing in my head. I shouted with everyone till I can't even hear myself.. I've got a rather hoarse voice too.. Rar. Haha. Yay yay! Monday is the first day of school! No, I'm not excited about it.. Grrr.. :/ First day of Lectures! Oh dear.... :/ Boring..... I just wish everything will be better.. I'm getting pretty paranoid about my surroundings. Sigh, yeah.. Good luck to HIMB for SYF Assesment'06!!! GRADE ONE HOR!!!!!! Hahahas. Take care.. I really need to sleep!! Ciao!!


Alright, that's me. Dirty and smelly after everything.. EWWWW.
I know luh, self-obsessed can... :/ Ha.. Next time then find ppl take with me lor!!
YELLOW YELLOW DIRTY FELLOW! YELLOW FOR BUSINESS!

"I saw your face, in the crowded place... And I don't know what to do.. 'Cause I'll never be with you....."

hi!

HI! I'm Jolene! A Former Holy Innocents' High School student. Now, I belong to TP'S Business School, RMT! CLASS 1R01! We are going to rock the year away!!! HA. Alright, I'll stop blabbering. It is not as if I'm THAT 'HIGH'....(pfft.) I'm just tired... Yeah, I know everyone in class already. LOL! I remembered all their names! And LiXian says I'm going to be her bestie for the year. LMAO. HYPER SIA THIS GIRL. Gary is toooooo shy!!! LOL, has sweaty palms too. x: LOL! Yay, mass dance &chicky dance was fun and all.. Heh. Aiya, RMT rocks luh! d: The SLs super 'HIGH' man. I LIKE. HA. Yea. So shall update more tomorrow..! Orientation Day Two!! HUH... zzzz.. HA! Alright! I'm going to bed already.. Ting Dong Tehs!

xiao qiang.

While doing my biggest business today, I met xiao qiang. It wasn't exactly 'xiao' lor, it's extremely gigantic luh! Lucky I finished my business in time.But, I was half-naked. Was going to bathe after business what!!!
Guess what happened to the feeler wriggling, big eye creature peeping at me? *OH BLUSHES!!! x:*
01. Spray water at it till it dies and drain it out.
02. Run out of the toilet.
03. Shout for Mummy.
If you guessed Number 03, you don't get a prize but, you're right! HAHA.

Mum:'Girl, why are you screaming?!'
Me:'MUMMMMYYYY!!!!!! GOT KA ZHUA IN THE TOILET!!!!!!!!!!'
Mum:'Haiyo!!!! Big or small one?!'(I'm afraid of them, IN ALL SIZES.)
Me:'BIG ONE LUH!!!!!! FASTER COME LUH!!!!!'(I know I sound stupid. Anyway, she always thinks that the BIG KA ZHUA I see were those tiny and puny-looking ones. She was wrong this time!)
*Mum barges into the bathroom. And take a good look at xiao qiang.*
Mum:'AIYO!!!!!!!!! SO BIG!!!!!! *takes killer-cockroach weapon out, BYGONE, and sprays like mad!!!* SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSsssssssssssssssssSSSSSSSSSS.....!!!!'
Me:'AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! WRIGGLING LIKE SIAO LEH!!!!!!!!!'

*Xiao qiang went bonkers and started wriggling madly.*
And at last, xiao qiang lay motionless and still.
LOL.
Tragic endings to stupid cockroaches which ends up in the Tan's household.
Hahaha.
Anyway, after all that chaos in the bathroom, I resumed with bathing.
Oh, what happened to xiao qiang? It got picked up by my maid and thrown away. Maybe it was flushed down the toilet bowl? God knows. [:
If only cockroaches were this cute..

They won't have to suffer. HAHAHAAHA! [x Alright, I'm making a big hoo-hah over cockroaches... LOL! Today was my day out with Olivia. We went to Habourfront's Dragon Gates for dim-sum buffet. YAY, the food was great and the chats with her were NEVER-ENDING. HAHA. We talked about almost anything luh! Hehe. Too talkative luh, cannot be blamed. After that, we went window-shopping. However, we couldn't resist looking at clothes and stuff that we actually shopped for it. Oh crap. Bummer... But yay, I bought my wallet finally!!! And 2 tops from Bossini. Yay-hays! Olivia bought this super cute Nalgene bottle. It had a BIG and cute flower imprinted on it. Heee. After that we went home cause she had to get home to stroll Dexter and Duke and fetch her Claryce from the childcare centre. Such a busy girl. Tsk tsk. Haha. She sure makes a good 'yi yi' and dog owner. Haha. Yeah, that's all for the day.. Ciao!

Slipped away.

Inhaling second hand smoke emitted by my father's fucking cigarette.
I hate and cannot stand smelling that awful stench.
It's burning up my lungs.
One day, he will just die of lung, thoart or whatever shit cancer.
Maybe, I would die first from all that second hand smoke.
ARG.
Bloody hell....

I spent my day burying my head under another novel 'cause I've got nothing else to fiddle with. Finally, I'm not going to face my four walls. I'm getting out of the house.. Run wild!!! Crap, just going to hang out with Olivia later in the day. Sigh. Then Thursday and Friday will be spent in school.
Hmm, I've got nothing better to say already!
Nothing interesting happened at all this few days. &Gosh, I'm getting really, really cranky and weird these days.
Just a piece of good new to myself: -0.5KG(O.O... LMAO!!)
I have to be happy about it 'cause I've been feeding myself excessively with Oreos, Macdonalds', food, food and more JUNK food.
[:
Strange, how Yakult just works wonders.
I've been bombarding the toilet bowl for more than once a day!
LOL.
Oreos reminded me of Angie.. LOL.
I told her that I had oreos before bedtime, and had a nightmare after that.
She told me that she is never going to look at oreos the same way again..
HAHA. She's so funny.. [:
Anyway, I would just like to share a song with all of you before I go..
Here is Avril Lavigne's Slipped Away ..
Enjoy.. Without music. Ha~ Good night.

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

Na na na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you

!@#% [:

YAWN!!!
I've been wrecking my brain just to think of what to put in this entry.
I'm still clueless though.
!$@$#%$&*. -__-
(5 minutes later..)
!@$@$%%$&*^@#$!@@#!!

Just probably thinking whether my mum is drunk..
She came home with that awkward look on her face and was kinda acting weirdly.
Ha.
Oh well, she and dad are knocked out and lying motionless on the couches and the television's blaring away..
And that's good 'cause they won't irrate me for the time being.
A little peace on my own.

It's going to be another day at home, again.
Sigh, I'll go insane if this carries on for days...
Anyway, just finished reading another novel.
Yeap.
I'm proud of myself though, 'cause frankly, I hatedislike reading.
Anyway, the novel's wonderfully written with witty characters and a good story line.
Great sex too!!!(blushes.. hurhur.)
Haha!
And it ended off well.
'Down There' by Pamela Rentmond Santran.
Four out of five stars rating I would give! [:
Hmmmmm, maybe I should stay home and bury my head under all these story books.
Ha..

I fathom it's going to be a hectic week next week 'cause school's starting and all.
I hope I don't embarrass myself or do anything blunderous.
Hohoho.
It's going to be a whole new experience!
Yadah yadah..
(Telling myself: Year 1, Year 2 & Year 3 in TP would be GREAT. Nothing could go wrong! HAHA, AS IF... Ya, hope it will be a smooth-sailing journey anyway.)
Weee, orientation's three days away!!!
Hope everyone will have great years ahead in their new enviroment!!
To those who are erm, LOST? And didn't get what they wanted..
Please don't despair, there's always the October intake.
&ITE isn't that bad afterall.
If you work hard, you'll make it to Poly next year yea?
Have a little faith in yourself.
To those taking their O Levels this year, don't let your efforts go to waste!!
MUG HARD, I'm sure you'll get really good results!!
WAHAHAHA, nonsensical, but true! [:
With Mid-Year Examinations looming around the corner, don't let it bring you down, huh?!
Beat it all with your knowledge!
ALL THE WAY!!!
Ha!
Alright, I'm getting very long-winded. Need to cut the crap.
All the best everyone!!!
&of course, ME! YAY!
Good night &take care!!

cleaning up.

today's a day when i decided to tidy up my closet full of bottoms.
yes. it was in a devastating state.
so, i decided to pour out all of the bottoms before re-arranging them back into the closet.

it turned out like that:

LOL.. it become like heaps of junk on my bed.

and i went like this:

hahaha! i got sick of tidying everything up..
but i didn't give up..
so, i arranged them according to colours and cloth material.

after about 1 hour or so, the results:

hahaha. yea. well, not exactly NEAT. but it's all tidied up. hahahas.
&presenting.. aunty jolene at HOME(w/o make-up, whatever clothings &messy hair!):

WAHHHHH!!! haha, hope i didn't make anyone barf.
hehehe.
oh, i'm from BLUE house. not RED.
bahahaha!
lame.

anyway, i made some friends last night through this gays' blog.
LOL.
GROOOL~
and we all share the same mentallity about gays.
hohoho [:
nice meeting you guys, angie &kenneth.
dont worry, i'm still straight.
i prefer girl loves boy LOVE.
still, people do have their choices of who they want to be.
like how twits live their lives and stuff.
it all the same.
hahaha, i'm sure those gays deserve a little respect too.
after all, we are all human beings.. just tht.. they aren't straight.
haha.
though some of us can't tolerate such behaviours, we should just leave them all alone.
make love, not WAR!!!! <3
hmmmmmmmm, am i being too open-minded?
hahaha! alright. ciao.

this is crap.

i wish it will just disappear.. maybe i should disappear.
hmm.
i can't sleep.
sigh, what should i do?
i give up snacking at night.
it gave me a nightmare in return last night..
well, it wasn't scary until someone turned into a green ghost.
OMG. *shakes head.*
yea yea, it's just a bad dream.
oh, version SIX is out.
[:
my cute flat lizard.
heh.
one of chermaine's all time favourite drawing.
LOL.
[:
i really feel like banging my head against the wall till i get knocked out.
am i still lying to myself?
trying to run away from my problems..?
what will be the best solution to end my misery?
no, not suicide.
i will never kill myself.
no, i promised not to hurt myself.
'cause it doesn't make me feel better.
how do you love someone else when you don't love yourself?
hmmm, so what know.
stupidly fucked up.
FOR NUTS?!
it's not worth. it's not worth. it's not worth.
just face it,
I CANNOT MAKE MYSELF FACE THE FACT.
consequences?
i'm dying inside while you are pointing your finger and tuanting me.
why am i talking to myself?
can't stop myself from hallucinating.
can you help me?
i'm so helpless.
stop laughing at me.
gosh, there are little voices in my head.
GET OUT!!!
-__- ha. just kidding.
sigh.
*faints.*

another day.

i'm feeling so pathetic now. /:
i survived on milk &oreos and 2 char siew bao today.
lol.
not even a proper meal.
i got turned off by lunch, that's why i didn't eat.
LEFTOVERS & PORRIDGE.
yuck.
the food were purely hard &cold.
you want to eat meh?!
hahas, actually it is my fault also luh, i woke up at 3PM today.
GOSH!! hehehe.
hmmmmmm.
my uncle is over at my house today.. he's helping us drive away the stench that is coming out of the refridgerator or outside of it.
whatever it is, it had been stinking for 4-5 freaking days!
YUCKS. i don't even dare to step into my kitchen!!!
but still, i think the stench comes from the back compartments of the fridge.
don't worry, i'm still alive and kicking.
hahaha.
erm, not trying to scare anyone, but my uncle said that it smelt like something is rotting &decomposing...
EW. BARF. hope you're not eating your favourite dish or anything right now.
LOL..
but hay, RELAX! nobody was killed or murdered at home luh!
we are 'hao gong ming's.
hahaha.
well, i hope the stench would go away.
it has been stinking my kitchen for like 5 days.
i'm totally GROSSED out!
freaky huh? b:
yawn..
orientation is approaching... i'm repeating, repeating..
hohoho.
SEVEN DAYS.
dang dangs.
HELP.
IN DESTRESS.
i need to do something.
everyone is busy schooling &working.
currently i have NO LIFE.
i am.... the LIVING DEAD...
ha, crap.
soon i'll be schooling..
shit.
hahahahaha.
oh yes, i am going to MI(yvonne's school)'s carnival this coming saturday.
my friends, anyone interested in coming along?
[:
PM me alright.
thank you.
hehehe.
tomorrow will be another stare-the-computer day.
geee. life's so meaningless when you have nothing better to do.

bored.

i'm so bored luh.

it's so blur. crap..

unsuccessful appeal.

Dear Applicant

Appeal for Admission to April 2006 Intake

We refer to your appeal for admission/change of course.

In view of overwhelming response to our course application, we regret to inform that we are unable to offer you a place of study. However, should there be a suitable vacancy available before the start of Academic Year 2006/2007 (24 April 2006), we will contact you.

Thank you for your interest in our courses.

Warmest Regards
Student Services & Admissions
Temasek Polytechnic
Email: Admissions@tp.edu.sg
Hotline: 6787 8000

]: it was unsuccessful.. but i'm still on waiting list. BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!! sigh.

a memory.

hehe. this is something very stupid but a very cute thing to rmb of my class. yea. i rmb this was drawn on our last day of school. the wacky-wacko drawings were contributed by the arty-farty GILA-GIRLS; CHER, SU, AME, SJ &ME. ha. [: i am mo jojojo(very fast). hehe. what's me favourite, NICH'S CHARCOLE FACE!! IT'S SO ADORABLE!(chuuu~) kekeke.. ha, i like the tortise(aaron) too! ha. the camel(ms) looks terrible. it's like distorted. aiya, that's the way he is d: boan the sleeping boy.. haha! TJY who loves translink and freebies.. ha! ali is the only normal looking thing. hay, not fair! hahahas. lastly, notice the many ugly thing we've drawn? LOL, i think we all know.. heeee, QUICK SPOT THEM! ooo, i'm so mean..*SNIGGERS &SNORTS* hahas, THEM 4INT'05. enjoy.

URG.

i'm so hungry ]:
&tired.
YAWNS.
i woke up so early today just to go swimming with olivia.
HEE.
well. i can count how many laps we swam with my 10 little fingers!
heh! x:
aiya. just like the feeling of floating on water.. chit chatting. oops. ha.
exposed.
after that, we had some delicious burgers &fries in HAN'S.
it's so GOOD. &i'm craving for it now.
COWS. MOO MOO.
i just went on shopping spree yesterday.
my GOD, i spent the money like water luh!
happy giving away money with oli~
hahaha.
i spent almost 200 dollars, can you belive it!
OMG.
wtf! ha, NVM.... shopping is like that.
least i have a sense of satisfaction.
the things that i really need ,want and buy now is a bag &a wallet.
sian. i think there goes another 100 dollars.
COWS.
it's alright actually.
the money that i work for have not been spent yet.
and shopping spree is like once in so many months.
ha.
i hope to go on another shopping spree, when i have the cash? hehe.
i just bought a super cute pair of shoes at a reasonable price today! YEA.
GREAT.
hahaha.
I JUST LOVE SHOES.
oh, i bought 2 tops, 2bottom &a pair of shoes! HAHA! AGAIN!!
HA!
oh and...
i manage to eat my all time favourite, KENNY ROGERS! nahahaha.
ok luh, i know this entry is super uber boring like the rest.
life no sparks also.
tsk. you brighten up my life luh!
you know. YOU?!
hehehe.
oooo. counting down to orientation.
COWS.
i'm feeling nervous.
NINE FREAKING DAYS!
remember.
sigh.
my family is gradually falling apart.
sigh.
&yet i'm enjoying myself.
sigh.
&not doing anything to make things alright.
sigh.
i'm such an imbecile sometimes.
forget it.
anyway, i was re-arranging my folders in my desktop and happen to chance upon my 'TWITISH' IRC script.
cows, don't know how many donkey years since i opened that crap.
anyway.. it took me several minutes to get connected.
and finally.
IT STILL WORKS.
ha.
all those band &school channels i used to join were gone.
so i tried #1989.
ok.
to my disgust, a guy who wanted to wank chatted with me.
URG.
you know how turned off am i,
THHHHHHHHHHHHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSS FUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKIIIIIIIINNNNNNNGGGG MUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHH!
barf.
anyway, i decided to ignore him.
HAHA.
besides all those men who wants to chat open-mindedly & wanking, i missed those irc days 2 or 3 years back?
they were kinda fun &stuff.
yea. how technology advanced so quickly.
practically, everyone uses MSN messanger.
hahaha.
so, only this dirty little boys would use IRC to hook-up girls.
pathetic things.
using IRC to WANK?
can't believe there are still such human-beings barbarians around.
lmao.
old fashion people with high sexual drives.
TSK TSK.
alright, i'm getting so tired of typing this.
see ya'll another day. [:

DAHS!

POUTS. hahas. i'm getting retarded, and hungry. DAHS DAHS DAHS [: i went out the entire day today.. WEEE. i love my BOXERS. lol. mum freaked out when i bought them. she thought that i was going out with only underwear. CRAZY!? heee. i love shopping! and i hate spending money. LOL. went back to compass point to have COFFEE with dearest lover and girlfriend. yipeees. holy cows, i saw LLL! URG! peee ew. luh luh. oh shit, i'm summarising my day. haha. it's alright. we all hate long-winded entries. alright i need FOOOD.... i love oreo cheesecake!! DAHS DAHS DAHS [x CREAMY CHEEEEEEEEEEEEESE. ok good night. sorry, i'm ZONKED.

style.

STYLE.

bigfatliar.

jolene, stop lying to yourself.

hungry.

damn hungry now, but my maid didn't really cook anything.
can anyone date me out for lunch now? i'm famished!
sigh.
coop myslef at home again.
so bored now! ]:
good thing i'm going out tomorrow. [:
wow, went window shopping with olivia ytd.
there's so many things i want to buy.
hahaha.
i must buy!!! RAR.
LOL.
sigh.
nth to talk about now.
i just finished watching the anime my brother brought home.
Tsubasa Resevoir Chronicles.
SO DAMN NICE...
it's so heart warming!
sigh, finished 17 chapters only.
i think still got don't know how many chapters!!!
the guy who sold him the dvd cheated my brother.
LOL, the guy said that it's the complete set.. but, inside only 17 chapters T.T
waiting for him to get the rest of chapters!!!
it's so nice~~~ it's even better than Cardcaptor Sakura. x:
CS is mmm, cuter luh.
TRC have much more adventure.
grooool.
LOL.
got dont know how many feathers(20?) to capture, the 17 chapters only completed with i think 4 feathers only.
DIAO.
i'm dying to watch cause it's so NICE..
]:
sigh. go find something better to do now.
i'll update later i guess.
ARG SO HUNGRY.

mental block

laa-dee-dum. i've got nothing to do today. ho-hum.
alright. my mother is back to normal. i think.
she was crying over the phone with my uncle, yelling, screaming &crying to him how ungrateful her kids are.
she says that i have forgotten about my family, and most importantly, her.
*bangs head against the wall.*
oh come on man, since nobody is around at home, of course i turn to my friends right?
she complained i go out everyday and comes home late at night.
like going out 3 out of 7 days equals to everyday.
and like coming home before 9, 10 or 11 PM means late at night.
HUH?
doesn't sounds logical to me.
you want me to accompany you, can.. but you're not even home!
you're just WORKING away everyday. fine, it's for us i understand.
but that's so unreasonable!!!
i wish you were in my shoes too... ]:
what about my siblings who disappeared from home everyday and comes home after midnight?!
SHEESH.
yes you care, but you over did it!
ARG.
whatever. i'm not going to go against her or anything.
how are we going to make things right??
]:

oh well, i am going to meet olivia in compass point in the morning..
she needs to buy that charles &keith bag for her mum.
&i need to return my library books which are dued and ask for help with my EZ-LINK card.
there is inadequate information on the handout about verifying my card.
crap.
20 &21 APRIL is orientation day!
going to school!! &i'm feeling angsty now.
not only meeting new people freaks me out, sports can sometime be a chore for me!
LOL.
wooops.
&i'm going to see someone again ]:
can we not be so fated huh? Dx
anticipating for school to start!
yadah yadah.
D:

anyway, i found myself laughing when i read through my past entries.
the handwritten and blog entries of 2004 &2005.
2005 was more significant.
yea and so here i go again!
i missed :
studying &schooling, schoolmates, teachers whom taught us, old lady(mrsANG!), 4INTEGRITY(well-known as the unmotivated class of sec4EX by teachers, and yes, they hate teaching us!), MY GILAGIRLS, tests, exams, night studies, makan after night studies, tuition &remedials, my ten-year series, hand-made notes, textbooks, mugging very very very very extremely hard for O Levels, going against the very little time we had, defeating monster 'O's, ARTING LIKE SHIT, copying each others homeworks, trying to stay awake during chinese lessons, got excited when LLL vanished from school for months, irritating teachers, making a din in class, running all over the class, sitting with buddy alicia, being nonsensical, gossipping &chatting away, telling ghost stories and hearing them of course, post exam activities, laughing very loudly, seeking attention, giving some attention to him(lol, i think my classmates should know who... LOL[:), getting someone else's attention(O.O), flirting around(GOSH!!! BLUSHES!), munching food, canteen's food, seaweed chicken....(droools..), my short skirt, big blouse, big shoes &ankle socks, morning run, being late for school, graduation ceremony, prom night, ETC.
i can't go on.
there's too much to list! HA!
but did you realise something, band crap is not listed.
2005 band life is so short-lived ¬hing special happened, well except for the KL trip &SYF.
overall, didn't enjoy it luh. peeee eww.
sigh, i just can't help reminiscing still....
why, it all whizzed by me so quickly...
give 2005 back to me? i need it so badly.
2006 is so much more painful and dull. ]:
i'd rather rewind and pretend nothing had happened.
what will the new school bring?
i really feel like puking my feelings out. *WORD PUKE.. ARRRHHHH!!!*
whatever.
oh sheesh, what a long entry.
but it came deep down from my heart.
heh.
i'm sure the sec 4 &5s are feeling this way too. right.. ]:
yeap..
memories.
it's always in the memory box.
rekindle this part of me again..
HA! in my dreams.
~~good night!!
have a good time reminiscing the gd and bad stuff before you sleep, or when you have nothing better to do. [:
it helps to de-stress!!!
no kidding! [x
HAHA.... so,
ciao.

bullshit.

my family is in chaos now. bloody hell, do i have to get blamed for nothing? are you grounding me for NOTHING?! bloody fuck. my mother has gone insane and is driving my elder brother and me up the wall. i wonder why she NEVER scolds my second brother. WTH?! so what he works everyday.. COME ON LUH. HE IS MORE WICKED THAN ME CAN?! wtf! $#&%#@$$#%. HE DOES THING I NEVER DO OKAY. I RARELY COME HOME BEFORE 11PM CAN?! I NEVER GO OUT EVERYDAY OK??!?!! I'M USE MY OWN $$$ TOO OKAY?!!?!?!?! is not like i never work before. it's not like i don't have $$$ IS NOT LIKE I DON'T WANT TO FIND A JOB. i'm starting SCHOOL for fuck sake. ARG. i'm going to get a P/T job after i stabilise my school timetable. idiot. ARHS. EVERYTIME SCOLD ME FOR NTH! nothing better to do is it?! I'M NT FOR YOU TO VENT YOUR ANGER ON OKAY, I'M YOUR FUCKING DAUGHTER. TAKE A CLOSER LOOK! I'M NOT AS MEAN AS YOU THINK OKAY?! I'M CONSIDERED A GOOD GIRL. I WOULD HAVE TAKE UP SMOKING, DRINK HEAVILY, TAKE DRUGS &GET SEND TO GIRLS' HOME LONG AGO IF YOU THINK I'M THAT BAD! I'VE BEEN THROUGH 5 TEENAGE YEARS. I KNOW WHAT'S WRONG AND RIGHT. I'M NOT A TWIT! FUCK. AND MY PARENTS ARE ALIVE AND KICKING! YOU ARE NOT FUCKING DEAD!!!! ARG!!!! STOP SAYING YOU ARE DEAD CAN?! INSANITY.

sigh. ok.. i feel better now. can't believe it. what's this? APRIL FOOLS HUH?! bullshit. ok. i'm grouded. no malaysia trip, no going out, no nothing, CAN? so i'm doing nothing now. what she wants me to do?! -__- elder bro and me are cooped up at home. arhs.. so bored.. ]: this is the most terrible week. sigh. MORE CHOCOLATES AND MINTS PLEASE. buay ta han... i wish someone would be there for me... sigh.. well better stop day-dreaming..